Sunday, May 25, 2008

Never Understand

I have come to the conclusion that I need to be more actively involved in our blog. Not that I really have the time nor do I think people really care about my opinion but from some weird reason I feel I should share my two cents and why not here? Today was a very frustrating and emotionaly hard Sunday, why should going to church be stressful of all things? On our way home we dropped off a brother and sister and we saw LOTS of people out with friends and bbqing and I had to remind myself why it was so important that we just spent eight hours at church.

So the real reason I am blogging today is about why many people will never understand what we have gone through and will go through with Landon. Not him per say but with adoption and what it takes to adopt. Some people question why we have spent so much money on the cuter than money can buy photos we had taken of him during our adoption finalization. I started pondering why I wanted to make such a big deal out of the weekend.

Could it be:

A. He cost us $20,000.

B. We waited almost 9 years to get a child.

C. Natalie sacrificed much for her child.

D. He may be the one and only, we will never know.

E. We had to have an attorney for this.

F. Our lives were scrutinized by all during this process.

G. Being sealed to your child or anyone in your family for that matter does not happen every day.

H. Do you understand the importance of the sealing covenant?

I. He makes me happier than I ever thought having a child would or could.

Unless you have been through a smiliar expereince you may never know how important this time in our life has been and we appreciate more than anything those who we have met along the way that have shared with us their life expereinces. Birth mothers who have children out there they know nothing about but chose to give their child a better life. Adoptive parents who shared with us their stories that gave us hope and inspiration along the way and told us this is all worth it. Workers in the Salt Lake Temple who made the day amazing! Stacy for taking the best pictures of Landon money could buy, and Mike for always understanding or at least making every attempt to understand his crazy wife.


The Michiganders said...

Those photos are so priceless. I wish I would have had to foresight to do the same thing. Don't let yourself worry what others think--I think that is one of the very best ways to spend your money--a priceless record of a very special day. Our sealing photo will always be up in our home.

So sorry you had a crummy Sunday. I hope that tommorow is much better.

much love-

Kamie said...

I love, love, love those photos and I hope when we are able to go to the temple and get sealed to our children that we have a photographer that can capture the moments that were captured in those perfect photos! Love them!

I am so glad that I have been able to share in your story a little as you experienced the miracle of adoption. Stories like yours continue to give me hope! And I know that most do not understand the reasons we do things - but we know the reasons and that is all that matters!

Over the weekend, I had all my relatives telling me that someday I will get pregnant and all of our prayers will be answered. I could not explain to them that adoption is a blessing and a miracle and what I am praying for. Getting pregnant is not the only way to an eternal family. If we are able to adopt, that will be an answer to my prayers. And yet again - they told me the same thing over and over and over again. I got so frustrated. I know they don't understand and won't until they are put in the situation. But once I wish they could understand that I want to adopt. And that is what I am hoping and praying for.

Anyways enough rambling - I think you and your family are amazing! Adoption is amazing and I am so happy that your little family has grown through this blessing!

(sorry about the post sized comment!)

Jaime said...

A child is such a wonderful blessing! I did not go through the same things as you guys did and there have been times that I bought the more expensive and/or made a big deal out of something when someone else may think I am crazy to do so. That is just something parents do. :)

Don't worry about what others think because the reality of it is you will only have those experiences once. No amount of money is more important than those moments.